I have to be honest. I am pissed off. Deep inside, I am frothing at the mouth. This pain I have been feeling, is grinding me down. I am so tired of my sore, twitchy muscles. I have had enough of not being able to walk without wanting to cry. Sad that I have to nap almost everyday. I miss my life, the one I had before.
I hate the feeling that I can’t do anything useful. The most simplest tasks are so daunting. Do you know that I used to clean houses just a year ago, to make some money? I was always sore, but nothing like this. I just want to sleep tonight without being woken up from the steady waves of pain from my hip, leg, and most other parts of my body.
I will go to the ER if necessary. I am actually scared sometimes. What is happening to me? What is wrong? I try so hard to be positive, but there are some days that take all that I have inside just to get through.
These are the kind of waves I want. Warm sun shining on me, toasting my bones.