The truth is, people will let you down. They will drop the ball, not be there when you call. They are busy and preoccupied with their own lives, problems, issues and tragedies. Even those closest to you will leave you hanging sometimes. My own husband has even bowed out a few times over the course of the last few months. This is a cause for some mistrust on my part, but I am working on trying to understand that he is only human. Loving someone with a mental illness is not an easy thing to do, no sir.
The only person in my life who has always caught me when I fall is my mother. I just called her to thank her for that. She has yet to let me down, not once. Even at my worst, my most irrational, deplorable, miserable…she is there. She loves me unconditionally, even when I am hateful and can’t be reasoned with.
She said it has been her privilege to be my mother. Even though I have put her through virtual hell, made her sick with worry, caused her many sleepless nights. Her answer is beautifully simple.
I’m your mother. And I will always be there, even when I’m not.
On this beautiful sunny day, I am full of gratitude that God gave me her.