I am chasing the golden goose, which is relief from the pain and general feeling of being flu-sick every day.
I can’t tell you how many times I have Google searched for fibromyalgia treatments. Vitamins, herbs, bee pollen, exotic ground up leaves from Malaysia. You name it, I have read about it and have contemplated placing an order. I have even tried a few supposedly natural cures, but nothing works like the testimonials claim.
They didn’t pass marijuana legalization in Ohio yesterday. I am disappointed, but not surprised.
I stopped at the state liquor store last night and bought a bottle of vanilla flavored vodka. 70 proof. I drank almost half, mixed with orange juice. It tasted like desperation, but at least I didn’t feel like a shit smeared cracker for a few hours.
I see my doctor tomorrow and plan on begging her, on my knees if needed (although I might need assistance getting back up) for more pain medication. If she doesn’t up the amount, the dosage, I will have to find a new doctor, because I cannot go on like this.
But what other choice do I have?