Throbbing hip, burning knee
Can’t you please just let me be?
Feeling fragile, bones that ache
Painful embrace, that keeps me awake
Fleeting relief, a narcotic taken
Yet because of addiction, I am mostly forsaken
My thoughts all a jumble, words often misplaced
How I wish that this pain would give me some space
I must rest now, again, unrefreshing sleep
Just don’t look my way, for perchance I weep
I did not cause it, I do not approve it
But if it’s God’s will, how can I deny it?
I walked to the manmade lake
Perhaps a hundred steps from my door
Darkness, a cool breeze, and solitude
Called out to be explored
Started out first somewhat steady
A minute passed before I stumbled
I could have backtracked, but wasn’t ready
I yearned to sit under that weeping willow
I listened intently to the night sounds
Relished in the rush of air on my bare arms
I saw a cat, inviting him to come ’round
But he was frightened, full of alarm
Made it back to my home, my dogs greeted me
As if I had been gone for the longest time
Which in reality, it felt like I had been
The weeping willow will shelter me again
Today is a break day, get out of pain day
I count my pills to make them last
If I don’t space them out well enough
They will outrun me extremely fast
I sometimes feel like I’m a drag
To those who hang around me
Or read the endless things I share
Oh, please, shut the fuck up already!
How hard it is to take a shower
It’s like a massive, well planned out event
It steals my spoons, one at a time
Just sucks them through the bathroom vent
Who out there can understand?
Is there anyone else like me?
Living your life with invisible bands
If so, we didn’t cause this to be!
Just take this pill, or change your diet!
Really, it helped a friend who tried it
The naysayers say, it’s bullshit, malarkey!
But we know the truth